Yes! Mother must have known or had a good guess at what the consequences of her defection would be. While I am grateful she fell for Dad leading to my existence, she should have planned her defection better and made absolutely sure the Queen could not come after her. I know Mother will argue that she did plan the defection (we have had this quarrel many times) but she would have known the Queen’s capabilities and taken extra precautions against them. Mother simply wasn’t through enough. Mother is used to being a magical being but I have to come to terms with being neither one thing fully nor the other. I am a compromised being in every sense. It does not make me feel good.
Are you using your magic, save in self defence? If you are, should you not be kinder to Eileen given you owe her skills to her?
I limit my use of magic. I was happy when I thought I was just a human being. All I’ve seen of magic is the trouble it causes so I use what skills I have sparingly. I don’t want to attract those creatures who feed on magic. You can’t imagine the horror I felt at having a dragon turn up in my garden. It did nothing for the wildlife who live here either. I really don’t want to face that again. I am not deliberately unkind to Mother but she has dropped me in it and I fail to see how it is wrong she is reminded of that fact. She owes me!
Do you think you will ever come to terms with being half-magical?
Probably not. It’s such a bizarre idea to get used to and nobody would expect their parent to come out with such a crazy tale. As far as I’m concerned, I am me. I have an odd ancestry and the less said about it the better.
You used some magic. Did you enjoy this? Will you continue to use magic?
I like flying. While it still feels strange having wings sprout out of my back when I touch behind my right knee, being in flight is wonderful and when I really need to relax I use an invisibility spell and take to the skies! It doesn’t fool the birds though. They get out of my way when I’m up there. I guess you can’t fool animal senses. I’ll continue to use what magic I find it best to use and primarily for my benefit. I’ll use magic defensively if I have to but I do expect Mother to do the bulk of this. It is her stock in trade after all. It isn’t mine.
Like Eileen, you tried to hide what you are from your husband but failed. Has Paul accepted what you are? How has it affected your marriage?
Paul blames Mother, rightly so. It was difficult for a while. He was livid I kept my magical blood hidden from him but can see now I was trying to shield him. Had the Queen not spoken out, there would have been no need for him to know and he accepts that. I’ve promised him I’ll never use magic in a way that will draw attention to it. As far as he and the world are concerned, we are an ordinary couple. Our marriage will be and is just fine. I hope I must never use magic defensively in front of Paul. I don’t know how that would effect him or me.